Cassyette: “In order to evolve and for the scene to have culture, it…

This is how This World Fucking Sucks – a record that traverses a spectrum, from ballads, to rock club bangers, to thumping nods to Berlin techno – came to be.

Musically, anyway. The title arrived after a day throwing ideas around in the studio in America with Crosses production whiz Shaun Lopez (she also worked with Tylr Rydr and Olly Burden). “I was in a bad mood, on the first day of my period when I’m always grumpy and nobody should talk to me, and it just came out – it was perfect.” The techno burst of Sex Metal and bouncing single Ipecac likewise came in a rush, their essence immediately captured before they vanished forever into the air.

As an impatient artist with a very drop-and-go approach, however, wrangling songs into an album and having to sit on them, rather than blasting them out as and when, was new territory.

“It was a really big thing for me, in terms of achievement, because I’m really not very good at focusing on stuff for that long,” she says. “The music industry moves more slowly than my brain does as well. I’m impatient, babe. I feel like people either think I’m crazy, or a bitch, because I’m like, ‘We need to do this now!’ I’m very direct, so I can get frustrated by having to wait, or keep doing something for too long.”

Another thing that made progress uncharacteristically slower than normal was that much of the music deals with grief. Having suddenly lost her father three years ago, Cassyette began using songs as a way to articulate and process her emotions, likening the finished thing to “opening your diary to the world”. Only, she found, she wasn’t quite ready, couldn’t bring them to a close.

“I’d been writing these songs since my dad passed, but some of the things I couldn’t finish,” she says. “I wasn’t dealing with things very well at the time. So I’d write things, and then leave them.”

During this period, Cassyette says that she “spiralled”, drinking too much and using too many drugs. Between then and picking the songs up again, Cassyette managed to get herself sober, partly on the instruction of her management, who warned her that she could lose everything she’d worked for. And that’s not what her dad would have wanted to see.

“When I was in a really bad spout of my addiction, I couldn’t actually finish the songs because I was not in my right mind,” she says. “When I got sober, which is now a year and a half ago, I came back to them, and literally within 20 minutes, I’d finished them.”

Part of the difficulty was having to re-engage with the grief, and let it back in, in order to open up.

“You have to put yourself back into the headspace,” she confirms. “So it was a lot to deal with. It was very emotionally draining, but in a really beautiful sense. It made me go through it again. Writing the whole album was like a therapy session that lasted a whole summer.

“It was hard – one of the hardest things I’ve ever done,” she says, “but I came out the other end feeling refreshed.”